I would sit for hours as a child listening to the wind blow through the trees. I would wonder what and who I am. As an adult and still having that same curiosity I would sit for hours at work staring at the windows and watching all the movement outside and wishing I could do more, be more, feel more.
In 2018 I took a bad fall at work. I tried to hid it from everyone which did not work. I was so afraid to lose my job my home and I fought hard to stay working and pleasing everyone but behind closed doors the pain my body was feeling was destroying everything about me. My freedom had left me in a strange way due to the pain. My weekends off and enjoy outdoors, shopping, and marketing had come to a halt.
I tore my meniscus, and small break and after finally realizing that I could not hide it angling the pain was so horrific well I decided to speak to family and friends and come clean. all the events I missed out on or moods I displayed came from not feeling myself and feeling bad about who I had become. I lost my job, my home and so many friends a year after my injury happened but I had more injuries as time had past and medication came in to my life. More falls due to meds making me feel like I had no issues but I did have issues with my knees and then fall after fall after fall I had enough and stoped meds.
I tried natural remedies for a short time.
I did go back to some meds but in the process I found natural remedies to add and take the place of injections. I found meditation and the sounds of wind and tree's blowing to help my soul calm down.
one day after a doctors appointment I entered mother's home to the smell of a lovely earthy candle lit. What a pleasant way to forget the doctors, meds, and procedures.
I found her meaning gypsy she started off small just a few candles. Lots of studying, lots of praying and trial and error. Smoking Mirrors to reality. I was in the trees and felt the earth beneath my feet the wind in my hair for the first time in years when I began this company.
I was invited to be part of the Los Angeles county fair and I did it all on my own I did that! My wish is that you follow what makes you happy especially in a world so hard to be in at times. Pain is not an end of life it's a reminder that you are alive.